This is a post that is long overdue, and one that I have been so scared to write. It is the post where I actually openly admit that I am accepting and embracing change and saying goodbye to working as a Makeup Artist. It is really hard to actually put this down in words, much harder than I thought.
I don’t know why it has taken me so long because the reality is that I haven’t worked as a Makeup Artist for almost a year. Last year due to illness and a flare of Lupus as well as finding out I was chronically anaemic, the decision to take a break was taken out of my hands. After having a heart to heart with Mr B, I decided to take a year off.
The last year has been about recovery or finding some kind of balance and It has still been bloody tricky. I am certainly out of any Lupus Flare which is great. The chronic fatigue is not so great and without being rude, unless you have experienced Chronic Fatigue, you may not understand how hard it is to function. Some days I wake up after a nights sleep, only to feel like I haven’t been to bed. One of the bigger issues that I am struggling with is that every now and again I really get the shakes. Shaky hands when you are doing Makeup is a huge problem.
I didn’t want to talk about my health all the time on my blog because It can put me in a very negative place. It is pretty s**t being the person that seems to have ALL the medical issues.
Then somebody brought to my attention that perhaps by me talking about my hidden illness, that I may actually inspire others. I hadn’t thought about it like that at all. There is always a fear that when you open up about having an illness that you get treated differently, which is why I guess talking about it makes more people aware. Maybe that is why I am being so open now.
I refuse to be a victim to illness, but the Makeup Artistry does have to go. It is too physically draining and that I can’t have.
Moving on and embracing change
So in the spirit of positivity, I am moving on.
I am looking at this as a change for the better. Let’s be honest, I have fit in being a Makeup Artist alongside everything else that I am doing for over 10 years. It has been a case of major multi-tasking and juggling, so all I am really doing is letting go of one of those balls. Snipping the string from one of those ballons, which will enable me to get a firmer grip of the others.
So what is next for me?
Well, I will always work in the industry, don’t worry about that. It is where my heart lies and my passion comes to life.
In addition to trying to master being the perfect housewife and mother (*rolls eyes*), I will continue in the following industry roles:
- Managing Archies Castings and Acting (#castingmum)
- Chaperone (Professionally licensed enabling me to be on set with Archie)
- Writer (Blogging and my book) (Did I mention I am writing a book?)
- *Something else which I can’t talk about yet, but I am super excited. Watch this space…*
I am so grateful for all of the wonderful opportunities I have had over the last 10 years in the Makeup Industry. Having worked on some amazing jobs, I have the best portfolio, which I will always have.
This is the thing. I am moving on, but my skills and knowledge will always be there should I change my mind. They are mine forever and for now, that is good enough.
So for now, thanks for listening and not judging.
Stick with me because I have some really exciting stuff coming up.
Loads of love,